From the dawn of childhood, I was always on a path to finding my personal identity. From an early age, I experienced depression and anxiety. This really impacted how I viewed myself and was an ongoing battle. I always felt something was wrong because I never seemed to “fit in” wherever I went. I was always more sensitive than most people, which was constantly pointed out. Even today, I tend to feel isolated and alone. I continually challenge myself by putting myself out there and trying new things. It can be emotionally exhausting, and when I reach those moments, I must set boundaries for my mental wellness.

One of my most defining moments was when my mother passed away last year. Hearing she passed away left me motionless in my thoughts. It was a shocking moment I will never forget. My mom was my biggest supporter and always advocated for me. She stood behind me and was passionate about anything I was working on. I was starting to speak on a few podcasts before, and she was proud every time I said. Recently, I have been grateful to speak on so many podcasts and share my journey.

The following week, after she passed away, I worked on different professional projects, including the magazine, because I knew that was what she would want more than anything. She wouldn’t want me to lose sight of my vision for the world. Even though it was incredibly hard, I didn’t want to make her any less proud of me. I have faced many rejections and setbacks, which one faces even more if they put themselves out there more. But my mother’s story is the most powerful one that has made me even more resilient. Before, I wanted to make myself and my mom proud, but now, it is more than that. It is about imprinting her legacy in the hearts of others, so they can experience the selflessness and beauty she carried.

It pains me I don’t get to hear her thoughts, feel her love, and see her reaction to some of the most amazing things that have ever happened to me, like being invited to the White House as a mental health advocate and meeting President Joseph Biden. Even though she is physically not here, I know in my heart she is here in a spiritual capacity. I recently had a dream about her, and it was so clear. A wave of peace and tranquility fell over me, and I knew she was beside me. It was one of my most pleasant dreams, making me feel fulfilled and happy.

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