The overlapping disruption of the pandemic, being called out publicly, and converting to a quadmester and hybrid model has Melanie and Amanda struggling with massive social change. They consider creating community with students, granting more grace to one another, and to call in colleagues to the work of equity and social justice. Being antiracist means that we consistently call our colleagues into the work which begins within recognizing the paradigm shift so active change can take place. We need to work in community with one another to recognize the ubiquitousness of whiteness, lean into the fear and the discomfort that is necessary as we integrate equity in challenging times.